Coming back home ...

I knew I would do this, I would start my diary blog, post one entry, then nothing …
But it isn't the reason why I didn't write anything, I feel like I don't have a life to talk about here, since 1st July, I've traveled -as a summer vacation- to KSA, the country is nice but it's just not for me!

So my life became as dull as you can imagine, I don't do a lot of activities and I don't want to anyway, I miss my friends, I miss my car, I miss my room, I miss my job *surprised*, I miss a lot of things, and maybe it's this feeling that kept me from getting the best out of my days here, I've pressed 'pause' to my life and in about 36 hours I'll press 'Play', I just hope it will be worth watching for a change!

I don't say I didn't have even a little fun! I did, mostly with my family, which was refreshing, usually I don't go out with my sister much and these days I'm kinda stuck with her *lol* , I get to know my 14 years old brother a little better, since I haven't been seeing him much with the crowded daily life we all have. And above all spending sometime with my father :), my uncle also lives here and with his three little girls I said goodbye to quietness and serenity *ugh*, lol.

But this vacation was different, I feel new, not myself ! Mostly in a good way, Now I have new interests, new -hopefully good- view of life and new gained weight, lol.
I've decided that what people think of me is not my concern anymore, I will be myself with out thinking of the consequences or who will like me and who won't!  Life is too short to be suppressed by all these expectations that people have for us, like If I said I don't like the holidays! … Why, honey? Don't say that in front of anyone we know! They might think you are depressive and joyless, holidays are fun!! Something must be wrong with you! Or something like this: I don't like this place, it's too noisy … ha! You must do that, don't you? We all want to go there to have some fun and you have to sit like someone you love died, you are too selfish!

What's wrong with hating the holidays or not wanting to be in a noisy places all the time!!!!

A little rant before I press 'Play', can't wait to be home.